In My Eyes

Being a drug free adult is really isolating sometimes, but I have never regretted it for a second. Drinking and smoking are still dumb to me, but its even more dumb that people need me to drink with them in order to feel comfortable. I feel seriously insulted by it. I know its not something to get hung up about, and that its not really on this or that person, its just a system we're all caught up in, but I won't be sucked into that world. If we're gonna have a human connection, its gotta be analog, baby. I won't accept anything less than reality. Its something I rarely talk about for a number of reasons but its something I'm pretty fired up about all the same, just as much as I was at 17.

I love being straight edge and I wish I had more friends that felt the way that I feel. Its such a positive thing, and in my mind terribly romantic, in that reality is so much wilder and more unruly and challenging than the alternative. I don't need a ton of people to feel the same, but it deflates me a little from time to time knowing that something I see so clearly is not important to anyone else.