I spent the summer wasting, the hours passed so pleasantly

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I'm reading Jesus' Son by Denis Johnson, 2/3 done right now, gonna try to kill it off before I sleep. I have heard about this book for a long time but it wasn't at the top of my list, I kept forgetting about it completely only later to catch a reference or hear some glowing review... For some reason it came into my head the other day at the bookstore so i bought it right away before my brain moved on. All I can say is that it's the best book I've read in a long time, instantly at the top of my favorite's list.

I leave for Seattle in 3 days, I'm not ready to go back. Ever since I left Arkansas when I was 13 I have felt really out of place, not sure of what my cultural identity should be. I think thats why I got so into Punk, but that's another story. Anyway, I don't feel like a poser saying this anymore; I'm southern damn it. I don't want to leave yet, its too good here. I really believe locations have distinctive vibrations or feelings that they give off. Seattle resonates at a B and I at an A minor, and I might harmonize with it but its not playing my note, its not singing my song. I can't explain what it does to me to walk around in the sweltering heat of the day or when I sit in the backyard while the sun goes down and listen to the cicadas and frogs and crickets. Especially the cicadas. The outside world here moves so slow, especially when compared to the west coast. When the world outside me gets smaller and slower then the world inside me speeds up and grows. I've been writing a lot more music lately, it's all incomplete and will most likely be scrapped or salvaged into something different later, but its really fun.

Still I'm kind excited to go to Seattle, I miss my friends and to tell the truth I am a little bit bored here. I can't wait to record again. These songs we have are really good, I want for us to document them as well as we can and then see what everyone thinks. some old songs can be found at ** Fixed the link http//:www.myspace.com/aleafmusic ** I like the 1st 3.